A Random Life Doing Random Things Is Not Ultimately Satisfying To Me Anymore
A random life doing random things is not ultimately satisfying to me anymore. There were times that I was more open, to anything that fell on my plate. An open and non-judgmental approach to life, following whatever was new and sparked my interest.
This way I got to explore, myself and life. As I immersed myself in different experiences, I got to know life from different perspectives. After a while though, you start to feel the difference between short-term pleasure and long-term satisfaction. The difference between what is for you and what is not.
Now I have self-knowledge and a deep connection to my authentic truth. I am still an explorer; always tuning into novelty, expanding experiences and inspiration. But the people, the places, the experiences and the vibes that I choose to engage with, need to feel meaningful to me. My dopamine-seeking brain might be interested in a wide variety of things, but when it’s not aligned with my Soul, it drains me more than it gives me anything.
When you are more deeply connected to your Soul, your life might start to become more “specific”. Not meaning that it becomes monotonic or one-sided. On the contrary, you might open yourself up to new worlds again and again. But you may become more selective about the people you engage with, the way you spend your time and the places you travel to.
Life becomes purposeful. A never-ending strive for ultimately satisfying events.
What is truly satisfying to you?
To me, it’s the things that make me feel deep love or connection and high inspiration.
At the moment, the nature in Lofoten highly inspires me. But my Soul also craves a break from this high-frequency center. It misses the fjords, the mossy forests, ancient trees and the troll-like mountains further South. So, when the timing is right, I will take a Lofoten break to ground myself in what feels like my “Home land”.
The most satisfying one-on-one relationships are the ones where I feel a Soul-connection. Where it’s more than clear that there is a deeper and more specific reason for our meet-up. A relationship where you feel a mutual energetic resonance that transcends time and space. They often lead to challenge and growth, inspiration, coming home to a lost family member, or just a deep feeling of being with the right person at the right time.
When it comes to social gatherings, I feel most love and satisfaction when I see my holy trinity in there: Nature, Creativity and Healing. When these energies are woven in a place and when we authentically connect to each other – without necessarily relying on mind-altering substances to open up or feel more deeply, that’s when I truly feel a sense of social wholesomeness. That’s when I feel the big Love warming me up from the inside out.
The job has to become purposeful as well. No matter what it is that gives you that sense of inspiration and purpose, when you become more Soul-aligned, it becomes increasingly challenging to do a job that doesn’t inspire you.
The Soul-job that I am doing is infinitely satisfying. It is an authentic expression, a natural extension of my true self. My life experiences, challenges, interests, passions and inner work all makes sense now that I do what I do. I’ve done the mission of unbecoming who I am not, so that I eventually could start the purpose of sharing who I am.
It is my true job and it doesn’t drain me. It just “feels right” to share my vision and healing with the people who are open and ready. It is “Soul-aligned”.
My Soul also craves the city. The lights, the music, the raves, the colors, the architecture, the beauty, the culture, the art. The stimulation, the novelty, the possibilities. But I do not want to go to just any city, having any experience. There has to be some meaningful purpose in it, bringing something new in my life. I want to go somewhere or do something that Soul-expands my life experience. I want to see something that is bigger than what I have seen before. To feel something that expands my emotion in a deeply satisfying way.
These are the experiences I look for. The ones that make me feel bigger, wider, more open. The ones that feel like a deep, satisfying breath of fresh air.
So, I am careful and thoughtful when making decisions.
Instead of making all kinds of fast decisions with my hyped-up brain, I let life decide for me. I let Spirit send me nudges, intuitive hints and inner-knowings. I’d rather have less quantity and more quality, than more quantity and less quality.
Life is purposeful now. Meaningful. Deeply satisfying. And strongly directed.
There are different phases in life. Grateful as I am for each of them, serving their own beauty and purpose, I am thrilled to have officially landed in this part of the journey.
